Lifslevande / Alive

Early bird this morning! Louis had an appointment for a bloodtest at the vets office, so we had to leav the comfort of our bed rather early today!
But on the other hand, hopefully I'll get more done today. I'm in alot of pain, my calf hurts, my back and so does my knee. I'm also dreading tomorrow and the chemo injection.... I'm not worried about the injection, not at all, not even the fact that I have to inject it myself tomorrow as the nurse guides me. This is so that I can be more independent and won't have to go to the hospital every single time.
What I'm dreading is the side effects of the injection... Last time I felt very sick, and all that goes with feeling really sick...ugh. (I take chemo to slow down the destruction of my joints and my muscles)

Last time after chemo I had a craving for Cinnamon Swirls, so today I've been making a batch of swirls!
I'm skinny, mini so I need to eat! If I loose to much weight I have to take a pause in the chemo-treatment.

 Thouh, the buns don't look at all as well made as they usually do! My hands and arms doesn't really cooperate, the efect of the cortisone has worn of so I'm back to beeing really stiff in ny joints. I've managed to dropp two eggs today...It's a little hell to wipe up eggs from the floor...
Never mind, hopefully the swirls will tast just as good as ever- and that's what counts!

I do really, really need a rest! Pain is horrible, even if I've taken loads of pain killers today.
I guess today is just one of those days ;-)

This week is packed with hospital appointments! And, really, after coming home from my little trip to Germany I do feel more feed up with the hospital than I did before.
I'm so glad that Oma took me to Hamburg, I did really need that holiday away from hospital, blood tests, injection and God knows all ;-)

This week:
Monday: Louis to vet.
Tuesday: Nurse Ewa to cheek weight, med's and food. Blood tests. Nurse Elisabet and chemo. (3 appointments)
Wednesday: Occupational therapist
Thursday: My "coach" (therpist, couldn't survive without her!). And orthopedic technitian to try out my foot ortose. (2 appointments)

Really, I should not complain! I'm foryunate to been taken care of and to actually being able to be treated, or at least to calm the worst of the artritis down.
It's just that, I dream of a life without hospital appointments every single day. Of a work where I can feel happy. I dream of a larger appartment and a little garden for Louis. I dream of seeing the world and of being able to take Mum places. I dream that my body would get allong better with me ;-)

I do need a rest now! The fact that I made buns makes it impossible for me to be able too cook tonight. But, I'm fortunate- I have a brain ;-), so I have taken a tortillia out of the reezer and will heat that up and eat it allong with cream fraishe, sallad and hommus.
yes, Life is good!!

(Yes, really is my favourite word today ;-) )