Lifslevande / Alive

I don't have to look out the window and see that it's a rainy day. I can just look at my watch when I wake up and if Louis lets me sleep longet than 6.30 am, it's deffinetly a rainy day!! We woke up at 8 am, and it was lovely to be able to sleep in a bit. It's Monday today and the first day in ages that I have absolutely nothing planed; nowhere that I have to be, no hospital appointments and no nothing!! It feels lovely to know that this Monday the 20th of June is Louis and mine!!

I have just payed this months bills and amn now waiting for Louis dog biscuitts to get ready. I make biscuitts out of his caned food. I take a tea spoon and make small heaps on a tray that I bake in the owen. After a while I turn down the heat which means that after 1-2 hours I have doggy biscuitts! It's perfect when Louis refuses to eat his dog food =)

As it is pay day for me today I need to go down to the Supermarket to buy some of the necessities such as juice, toiletpaper and cocholate- hihi! I don't do the heavy shopping myself as I can't lift heavy bags. But I do normaly go down to the Supermarket myself a ouple of times per week. I have a shopping trolley that I put the grocerys in- just perfect!
As I live in the city centre of Ängelholm I'm thinking about having a look in some of the shopps on my way to the Supermarket. The not so very good thing about living in the city centre is that I have to pass all the shopps on my way to buy food. I have now found another way ;-), but as I have nothing planed today and as today is MY day- I'll indulf´ge myself with some window shopping and to have a look at the midsummer sale.

It's lovely to have a day without musts, just to take one thing at the time and do the things I feel like doing. It's 11 am and I'm still in the clothes I wore yesterday... Marie- really!!! I just got dressed in them this morning to take Louis for a walk, but normaly I have a shower after breakfast and then a rest before I go to hospital. Today...not so much! Hihi!!!
These days, inbetween all appointmenst, are the days that makes life wort living! Spending time with Louis, reading a book, watching afternnon reruns on TV, eating snacks, launging in my soffa and feel the calm of not having anything what so ever pthat I need to do! I have even planed to make myself an easy sallad for dinner, so that I don't need to take care of a load of dishes afterwards. Which....just remined me of that...ugh, yesterdays dishes is waiting for me in the kitchen! Argh!!! Why?!?!? Well, I'l deal with it as soon as I...feel like it =)

Oficially the Swedish summer holidays begann last Friday, and for school kids and youngsters all ready on the 10th of June. But, today is the first day the summer holiday in Sweden. For me this means that I don't have as many hospital appointments as normal thes coming 2 months. There's always someone on holiday and this makes my schedule less crowded. Nevertheless, there's always an appointment. I'm thinking that I might see to that I clear a whole week in July out, so that I atleast have ONE week without any appointments at all!! I think that Louis and I deserve it!

Yes, I know, I have been on two Europe holidays in a short time but these were as I wrote- short. Short just because I needed to get back to hospital and my treatments. One needs to feel free at times!!!

Guess if I miss England!! It hurts so much to know I'm so far away from many of my dearest friends. To know that I can't just jump on a trian and go see them for a tea or dinner... There's alot of serious savings to be made and alot of planing. I live on disability alovance and money is an issue. I do manage and yes I have an okey life financialy- but there is no way on earth there is room for any extra expences! To buy shoes I need to save for two months and to go on a trip...Hmmm, alot longer! The fact that I was able to go this time was that my mother helped me with the plane ticket, 3 hotell nights and some pocket money. My brother got alot of things for his baby and himself. Then the Proteus Family Network paid for two hotel nights and I'm so greatful to them- THANK YOU!!!

My dream is to get better, be able to have a job and earn money so that I can do those extra things that makes life a bit speciall! The thing is, if you are ill...it's even more important to be able to do those extra things once in a while. Firsta and foremost, I want to be able to do things when I feel okey and...when I actually can. And also, it's so important to have something speciall to look forward to when you have to go through treatmenst, tests and medications. The worry of tomorrow. It's sooo important to be able to let go of everyday life and just embrace life!

Well, I'm going to embrace life in my kitchen doing my dishes now! better to do it so the I can spend the afternnon just realxing!!!
Louis is asleep in our bed. No worries what so ever on his little doggy shoulders!


                                
                                                             The love of my life!!!