Lifslevande / Alive

Today has been a day of domestic duties. I have done some of my laundry and also tidied up our appartment.  Really, it was more than I could handle in one day but it needed to be done.
Thouh, there's a lovely satisfaction in putting away the clean laundry and not feeling all the crums underneath my feet. Louis helped me; he eat biscuitts on the nrwly hoovered floors and barked at the mailman!

Now we are launging in our comfy red soffa with freshy washed blankets! When I put down newly washed blankets infront of Louis he cuddles with them, he lays on his back and twists around and he falls sleep on top of the blankets!

I went to see my reumatologist yesterday. The outcome wasn't really what I had hoped fore... She wants me to take the chemo injections every forthnight instead of every week. Then I will only be fattigue, feeling sick and having tummy problems ever second week... yeeeeyyyy!!! Noooot! What the hell! I can't say that I'm exited about the new plan, but I know that I need the treatment to be ale to stay mobile as long as possible!
I want to be able to take Louis for walks, take him on adventures and I want to be able to live when I'm alive! My life is short and I want to live it for an as long time as possible!!!
So, here we go again, chemo on Tuesday! Oh, well, as if that is not enough. In 8 weeks they will increase the dosage... Am I not the luckiest woman alive?!?!

Yes, there really are people worse off, but there are also people that are way better off!!!! And they are millions and millions!!!
Well I'm lucky... I have my lovely little Louis! We have a wounderful appartment in the city centre of Ängelholm. I have a handfull of very close friends and family. There are things to be greatful fore, thouh I just can't help to wish that I had another body....

...and maybe another brain! I have triedd to POP my e-mail to my Windows Live Messenger for one week now and somehow I can't get the outgoing mail to work! I can recieve mails, no problem- but I can't send mails.... It feels like I have tried everything possible.... I just have to let it go for today and give it a new go tomrrow. Just as I have done for a week ;-). It's just that I get soooo frustrated!!
Sometimes I wish that I were married to a computer wizzard! Or a doctor!!! That would be fabtastic! Or why not a veterinary?!!? That would be awsome!! Hmm, or a millionar!!!

It seems to be between moonsone showers now so I ought to take Louis for a short little walk before we throw ourself in the soffa again!! Tea, a pice of chocholate and some fruit is the plan!!

                                                     "On the roads to new beginnings...."